12.17.09 – Cycle of Blue

I hate this time of year, especially as I get older. It’s not just all the craziness of the stores and the holiday mayhem, but I think the combination of my birthday, which is a time of introspection, and the end of the year. It’s just too much of a weight of feeling like I haven’t accomplished anything and that I might not ever get to where I want to be. Sometimes it’s just too much. Then it eases off or I get too busy to notice, and then it starts up again in a never-ending cycle.